THE CREATION OF DARK CLOUDS

Some people explain depression as a dark cloud hanging over their head. It comes creeping when you least expect it. It grabs you by the neck in a blink of an eye and paralyses you. It pierces every cell of you body, leaving you numb and weak. All you feel like doing is lie down and surrender. Wait for it to pass, if it ever will. You fear that this time it won’t go away and you will be trapped in this claustrophobic box of darkness forever. It is floating inside your body with no intention of leaving you alone. The only thing that disappears is you.

In this self-portrait I’m using a black veil to symbolize the dark clouds running around my mind. I decided to shoot the image on a foggy day in order to make the black veil pop against the background. Personally I feel that the contrast between the black and the white adds a nice touch of drama to the image. In order to make the veil resemble a cloud, I used long exposure while throwing the veil around my head. The challenge with long exposure is that everything that moves in the image gets blurry. It was quite hard throwing the veil around without moving my face at all and it took several attempts to get it right. In post production I converted the image to black and white and added quite a bit of contrast. In order to achieve a painterly look I added a texture layer and a vignette.

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Trying out different movements to make the veil to look like clouds.

 

 

 

 

I want to finish this post with my favorite poem by Poe. In my darkest moments it always makes me feel better. The poem itself is sad but I can relate to it, and ironically, it makes me feel less alone. I urge everyone to read it.

Alone

By Edgar Allan Poe

From childhood’s hour I have not been

As others were; I have not seen

As others saw; I could not bring

My passions from a common spring.

From the same source I have not taken

My sorrow; I could not awaken

My heart to joy at the same tone;

And all I loved, I loved alone.

Then- in my childhood, in the dawn

Of a most stormy life- was drawn

From every depth of good and ill

The mystery which binds me still:

From the torrent, or the fountain,

From the red cliff of the mountain,

From the sun that round me rolled

In its autumn tint of gold,

From the lightning in the sky

As it passed me flying by,

From the thunder and the storm,

And the cloud that took the form

(When the rest of Heaven was blue)

Of a demon in my view.

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